the future awaits
Today, my mom flew to Manila and Kuya Flor went to davao. I was left alone to manage our house and our store. I realize that I have a big responsibility waiting for me. Just waiting for the right time. We don’t know when we will be leaving this world. There is a possibility that they will go first. And I will left alone with all the responsibilities. It will be my worst nightmare. The end of my happy days.
I was not used to work. I grew up not knowing anything about working. Someone always does the job for me. My mom, she wanted me to help in the store. But I was not feeling it and I’m very hard headed. I didn’t want to help coz I always wanted to watch tv (cartoons). Mom was busy that she just lets me do what I want.
I know. I Know. This is all my fault. Tigas kasi ng ulo. Kaya ako rin nahihirapan ngayon. Honestly, I don’t really know what I am doing right now in our Pharmacy. I mean, I am not doing it the right way.
I opened the store kanina. I watched our employees do their work. And I saw my future. I was scared. I thought of the people that I could trust in supervising our store when I am not around. The possibility of dishonesty. I felt the stress and pressure. Its so hard.
But My mom enjoyed and survived all of it. My kuya, he is now 42 and still single. He has lots regrets in his life because he choose to stay and manage the store. I don’t want to end up like him. I always tell myself that. Maybe I can learn to enjoy and love the work and be able to survive it.
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i feel the same about “work.” i used to be so much in control of my life when i was single but now i’m at a loss looking at the huge responsibility i have. i don’t even have the keys to our gate. i just do my own specific tasks but i wish i were more in control. most seem to be just delegated except when in comes to my kids & the stuff in my computer. i have to pray all the time. how true that we need good people that we can trust. as for your brother, perhaps his challenge now is just to grow with what you have. if he’ll look at what could have been, what if it wouldn’t have worked out as well as what he has now? god bless.
thanks for viewing my bkk pictures, btw.
I think that’s a normal feeling. I experienced that too before, I guess your situation is way less complicated too, because I really found it too complicated working for the family company that later I decided to leave. I guess there’s just too much politics within the company and people expected too much from me, but, at the same time, they judged me because of my dark past. LOL.
I’m sure you’d make a good manager of your Pharmacy, you just need to get used to it. You’ll survive, and no I don’t think you will have the same fate as your kuya!
God Bless!
Be strong and be brave, and never forget to seek the guidance of the Lord. He knows what is best for us all. Pls greet Vincent and Gail for us.
ok kuya. thank you sa advice.